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Starting Over
Nov. 16th, 2009 08:37 pmIt is true that all... such as I have to start over. We escape back into our world, thinking we've finally escaped the nightmare only to find things changed. More or less time has passed than we think. Some have families who thought they had died. They're the lucky ones. The rest of us return to find... something has been living our lives for us.
When I escaped the Hedge, all I was thinking about was getting away. That thought, that conscious human though had dragged me out of the seductive animal Now. But once I was back in the so-called 'real' world other thoughts, other desires came back. Old dreams, long buried under the crushing weight of Now.
But even in my freedom, I was still subject to Her whims. For she had replaced me with one of those... things. A feitch. And it had lived my life for me. Some others have killed their feitchs, but I couldn't. It... She had reached the dream I had once had before I was taken. I saw my... her face on the show posters, now a grand Top Star. And I knew I had to leave.
Leave Takarazuka. Leave Japan. Leave everything I've ever known. Only then may I try to build something new.
I curse Her for what She took from me. All of them take our lives. She took my dreams as well. But I will not let Her take me back. No. I will start over, if it kills me.
When I escaped the Hedge, all I was thinking about was getting away. That thought, that conscious human though had dragged me out of the seductive animal Now. But once I was back in the so-called 'real' world other thoughts, other desires came back. Old dreams, long buried under the crushing weight of Now.
But even in my freedom, I was still subject to Her whims. For she had replaced me with one of those... things. A feitch. And it had lived my life for me. Some others have killed their feitchs, but I couldn't. It... She had reached the dream I had once had before I was taken. I saw my... her face on the show posters, now a grand Top Star. And I knew I had to leave.
Leave Takarazuka. Leave Japan. Leave everything I've ever known. Only then may I try to build something new.
I curse Her for what She took from me. All of them take our lives. She took my dreams as well. But I will not let Her take me back. No. I will start over, if it kills me.
